Narcissus

I'm scared of what your eyes have seen
But more scared of what your words mean
The picture u painted and the scene
And the lines drawn that u read between

The terms you use to define me
Have left me standing beside me
I wonder if you have known me
Or if Im the one hidden from me

I only know me through your eyes
And assume your words were not lies
But I'm certain that I'm cutting ties
Until I, myself, I do define

I then realized my eyes surprise
Seeing what my sight denies
But having the hope my heart supplies
Despite failures from numerous tries

I was not who you thought I'd be
Regardless of how hard I tried to be
So that you would like me
Or at least the me I appeared to be

I appeared perfect in every way
And crafted each word that I'd say
Yet all this to my dismay
He and I were not the same

I spent hours in reflection
My mind ran with clear direction
with the purpose of my own inspection
And my thoughts, their collection

Throughout all this you said of me
No one can love me as much as me
Forgetting all that I gave to thee
And knowing what was left of me

Silent, there I could not stand
Confused, broken, twisted and
Nothing ending as was planned
And now one thing I understand

All this time I spent on me
You spent in rage and jealousy
I know that now, I am free
To simply be who I am meant to be

Narcissus
Be careful which side of the story u read....

Copyright Justin Gerges 2013